I was going to do a video blog on this, but I decided not too. I might do one tomorrow though. As you see I have a new theme. I love pink,tan and brown. Its so pretty. The colors go well together!

I decided that I was going to share with everyone my secret. I wasn’t planning on telling anyone, but I decided that I am. I really need the online support from my friends. Nobody really knows outside of my online life. I am planning on getting gastric bypass surgery. I was actually throwing the  idea around and a doctor of mine told me that I should get it and really upset me about it and my weight. That actually got me thinking and then with Jenn having hers, I decided that I was going  to do it.

I thought about it couple years ago. I always told myself that it was the “easy” way out. Actually that is not true. I have watched many youtube videos and seeing Jenn in person seeing what she does is def not the easy way out. My first appointment is Friday. I am so scared and so excited at the time same. You can read my weight loss website to find out more about my surgery. I wasn’t going to share it, but like I said before I need the support. I haven’t weighted myself in awhile, so I am really nervous if they weight me Friday. I bet I am going to loose it like I did today.

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Well its 2010 and everyone has resolutions that they want to stick to. Resolutions are sometimes to stick to. You get all excited about sticking to them and then you just don’t do it. This always happens to me, but this year I am planning on changing that. This year for 2010 I plan on doing something about my weight. I am no more going to subject myself to this. I feel like im drowning in my own fat. I know that is harsh to say but there is so much I want to do with my life and I can’t because of my weight. I am sick of it. I really wish that I did something about it 10 years ago. Why I have to wait until now I will never know.

Another resolution of mine is to cut down on shopping. I am not saying I buy something everyday, but I like to shop. What can I say I am a girl that has a fancy taste. I plan on cutting down on the shopping. I find its better not even going out, this way you can’t get tempted!

Another resolution I have is that I want to save more. I hate saving, but there is going to be a time where I want something really bad and then I have no money for it. If I save my money, then I can think about buying it. Its also nice to know that there is money in the bank at all times.

Another resolution of mine is to blog more often. I start to blog and then I forget to blog. I always twitter because its so easy. I also have Wordpress on my blackberry so there should be no reason why I do not blog.

What are you 2010 resolutions??

I can not believe its December already! Where has the time gone? Next thing you know its going to be New Years! Wow, I still remember walking on the beach with Matthew from this summer. I guess time does fly by when your in love!

Sometimes I forget that Matthew were over 1,000 miles away and the long distance relationship we had. I don’t know how I did it, but I guess I got through it and now were happy then ever. So many people said it wouldn’t work and long distance relationships don’t work! I am living proof that it does. With patience and time it will happen. I can remember getting small little gifts in the mail that Matthew would surprise me with. My favorite memory besides Matthew proposing to me on New Years 2001 is when he gave me a promise ring. I was so excited and showed everyone! I was and still very happy.

Sometimes it slips my mind all the times we left each other at the airport, being heart broken. It is really a horrible feeling. We got through it, and made it work. I knew that he was the one, which is why we picked out “Your still the one” by Shaina Twain as our wedding song. I guess goose bumps sometimes when I hear it because its so true about us.

I know that I never mention about our Thanksgiving. It was good, I got sick. We went to a restaurant for dinner and it was very good, but I got sick. Man I should really know better! I was so sick, I was tempted to go to the hospital. I made it thru the day, but in serious pain. Gr.

I didn’t hit any of the black Friday sales. I actually slept in and enjoyed it. I did finish our Christmas shopping last night. I am so glad that its all done. It doesn’t feel like the holiday season when its 60 degrees outside. When is it ever hot like that in December?

I have been sick for couple days no. Blah, it sucks being sick!! I have a bad head ache. The medication they gave me doesn’t seem to work and I was feeling better and then I started to feel weak and very tired. I gotta get better soon because Matt and I are going to visit Jenn’s family next week! I can not wait to get away!!!