Wow, I can’t believe that its already February. I remember when it was Christmas eve and thinking about the new year. The time is really flying by fast! Which is great for me and my surgery date! I don’t have a surgery date yet, but I do have a month and its July!! I am so excited!

As much as I am excited, I am really pissed off. I feel like my insurance company is being very difficult with me. Sometimes I just want to quit. I just want to cry because I feel like this is never going to happen. I want this so bad, and I have been doing everything that I can to help my situation, but I feel like I am just going to fail.

Ugh

I want to thank everyone for the positive comments about my surgery. I need all the support I can get online and off line. The lady kind of threw me off when she said July for my surgery month. I don’t know why I kept thinking September because that would have been nine months.

I have been keeping a off line journal of my journey too. I started couple days ago. I am so excited about this! I finding writing stuff down is a great way to track everything. I track my food daily now. I also plan my meals out for the week. I find it makes it more easy. Plus I can bring my book to the doctors office to check my food intake. Whatever it takes, I am making the change.

I decided to start cutting down on certain foods. I’m also going to stop eating french fries, but go with the baked potato as its better. I will post my diet on my weight loss blog if anyone is interested in seeing it. I’m planning on heading to the store to pick up some items for the week. I made a pledge to loose 25 pounds by July. I know I can do it.

You can read more updates about my surgery and diet at herfabulouslife.com. I also do a lot of video blogs there too. I want to capture everything on video of my journey to track progress and to inspire others who are at a crossroads in their life like I was. I am hoping to get a new camera as the one I have is too pixeled, but its good for now.

I was going to do a video blog on this, but I decided not too. I might do one tomorrow though. As you see I have a new theme. I love pink,tan and brown. Its so pretty. The colors go well together!

I decided that I was going to share with everyone my secret. I wasn’t planning on telling anyone, but I decided that I am. I really need the online support from my friends. Nobody really knows outside of my online life. I am planning on getting gastric bypass surgery. I was actually throwing the  idea around and a doctor of mine told me that I should get it and really upset me about it and my weight. That actually got me thinking and then with Jenn having hers, I decided that I was going  to do it.

I thought about it couple years ago. I always told myself that it was the “easy” way out. Actually that is not true. I have watched many youtube videos and seeing Jenn in person seeing what she does is def not the easy way out. My first appointment is Friday. I am so scared and so excited at the time same. You can read my weight loss website to find out more about my surgery. I wasn’t going to share it, but like I said before I need the support. I haven’t weighted myself in awhile, so I am really nervous if they weight me Friday. I bet I am going to loose it like I did today.

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